It’s been a while but I want to speak my mind…
Why can’t I make the ones I care about happy? All I want is for the ones I care about most happy but I can’t do that and I hate it.
Why can’t I be there for them physically? It sucks caring for someone and not being able to help them because you can’t be there physically and even then there is no guarantee that you will make them happy, maybe for them to be happy you have to leave?
Why do good people have to suffer? I hate how all these good people that I’ve seen suffer and are depressed and go through such terrible things. It’s awful to watch.
Why am I so tired all of the sudden? Even lifting a tube of toothpaste felt heavy, you know what I mean? That’s never happened before..
Why am I having such awful thoughts but can’t come through with them? I wish I could but I don’t know what’s keeping me.
Why am I having the urge to cry 24/7 but can’t even if I tried?
Why can’t I forget all these things in my head? All these memories that I’m the only one that misses, I’m suffering. They are constantly on my mind and nothing gets rid of them.


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He loves me. Im complete.<3

(Source: oktober2nd)


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If I had a gun I wouldn’t think twice about pulling the trigger

(Source: awake-in-this-nightmare)


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secretelover:

Today’s my boyfriends birthday and I think this is perfect.👌


secretelover:

I never wanted today to end.
Today was lovely
And beautiful
And delightful
And romantic
And overwhelming
But I love you
I love you more than the moon
More than the stars
More than all the grains of sand
I’ll love you until the end
I’ll love you more when you think I love you least
Until then
I’ll continue to remember today.
The last day with my love for 3 months.

(Source: oktober2nd)


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secretelover:

Today’s my boyfriends birthday and I think this is perfect.👌


nopurposetokeepgoing:

secretelover:

I never wanted today to end.
Today was lovely
And beautiful
And delightful
And romantic
And overwhelming
But I love you
I love you more than the moon
More than the stars
More than all the grains of sand
I’ll love you until the end
I’ll love you more when you think I love you least
Until then
I’ll continue to remember today.
The last day with my love for 3 months.

Please don’t go. Please 😔 stay another day. Don’t go.. Please..

(Source: oktober2nd)


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secretelover:

secretelover:

I love you babe 😙

He got my phone goddamn it!!

(Source: oktober2nd, via nopurposetokeepgoing)


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nopurposetokeepgoing:

Hey babe I love you.
Yes I hacked your tumblr
Love me


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